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30/07/2025

hey, im here again to talk about a bit of what ive been up to in the past few days.
LOTS of minecraft! turns out i really love this silly block game, no matter how many times i get bored of it i keep coming back to it. ive been playing since 1.12 came out, but i have a fascination for old minecraft versions (infdev, alpha, beta and old releases), so ive been playing some of those too. with the help of the amazing minecraft discontinued features wiki, im planning out a version update path starting in infdev 10020615, and taking me all the way to 1.16.5 where i will stay indefinitely. (more details soon!) I plan to spend a few months in each of the major versions, except for infdev. as of now, im in alpha 1.1.2_01, just one update before the nether was added to java edition for the first time! working on some big building projects, and before i update to alpha 1.2.0, im gonna record a lil tour of my world showing off every build and feature. lots of things there to look out for in the next few months :)
im also playing superflat survival with an irl friend. its going really well mostly. we did almost lose all our villagers but luckily i managed to make them breed so we have more now. i have plans to transform the village we currently live in and make it into a huge kingdom, its gonna be great. i was greatly inspired by mogswamp, he is an amazing youtuber that you should definitely check out! maybe ill also record a world tour for the superflat world once we have something interesting to show, but for now we are still looking for a nether fortress :p
as for general life things, ive been a lot into tea recently. brewing some loose tea instead of buying it in bags. i know a nice and quaint tea shop in a nearby mall so i get my tea from there. irish cream is really good, love it!
really obssessed with my cd player as always, listening to lots of evanescence.
met some people on discord recently through a certain community. lovely people. you know who you are. this petal is sending lots of love ^-^
thats it! till we meet again! bye bye internet creatures!

13/07/2025

hey internet, its been a while. i dont know who sees these but honestly i missed writing them. im currently sat on a chair in my balcony with my laptop on my lap as i type this. its been a weird couple of weeks since the last time i made an entry. im on estrogen now! my body is slowly becoming more and more my own. i still have some crazy dysphoric episodes, and i doubt theyre going away for good, but they sure are getting less annoying the happier i become with my body. i feel more like me, if anything.
im due to start taking setraline in a couple days so theres also that. hopefully it helps. i did my finals. cant say im happy with the way they went though, but who cares. at least im done with school, and hopefully ill get into university this year. if i cant do it, ill get a job, work hard to retake my exams and try again next year. but hopefully it wont come to that. its been so hot recently here in the uk. i feel like im melting and losing so much water. my skin feels dry if i dont drink water constantly, and remembering to drink water is a painnnnnn! but we vibe. honestly i dont know what im gonna do in life. ill take a game dev undergrad course at uni, thats for sure. but idk what im gonna "be". its kinda daunting thinking about it like that. i also made a new tumblr blog, ill adf it somewhere in this page soon. maybe tomorrow. is late today and im sleepy, although being in my balcony taking in some fresh night air helps me stay alert. welp, its summer now! has been for about a month. im really enjoying the free time, but i hope i can get a job soon. i wouldnt mind working a bit to make some money and get outta the house, ya know? so what have i been doing? well, i got a few games in the steam summer sale: cruelty squad, stardew valley, and the one im really obssessed about: ULTRAKILL!!!! its been a blast to tear through crowds of hellspawn XD! it reminds me of when my friend lent me a copy of doom 1993. i suck at doom, but ultrakill is more up my alley! im getting better at it, rn im trying to beat wrath. the lore is also so expansive, i love it so much! ive been rewatching the owl house lately and crying a lot to it... its so cute and gay lol. the boiling isles being the remains of a titan is also really fascinating. ive been playing on a minecraft SMP with a bunch of online friends for the past two weeks and its going great! i might build something like the boiling isles for my megabase. a city on a corpse. also yes, i like minecraft again. at least with friends. singleplayer is not for me anymore, too boring.
well, thats it for tonight, im a sleepy girl. hopefully i wont take a literal two months to write here again. bye bye website :3

16/05/2025

its fucking friday bitches LETS GOOOOO!!!!!
i ordered my estrogen yayaya

08/05/2025

i really wanna get back to playing some terraria. maybe ill try calamity for the first time sometime.
today was a shit day and i feel super dysphoric and dissociated all day. i cant stop crying. i just dont wanna think about my finals. i dont care anymore.

04/05/2025